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My Miracle Day (a Life Lesson)

Almost a year ago, Tim and I had a time apart. 
A time that was necessary for the both of us – in order to grow and truly know what we want… a time in which I truly suffered and yet I felt it was a cleansing that was completely necessary in order for my next step ahead…

…I had no idea…

The day on which Tim came back into my life (and stayed) on February 19th 2017, was a miraculous day…

I remember walking through Brooklyn, by the ocean, listening to an mp3 by my dear friend Maya KahNah who did a reading on my twin flame and me.

She made it very clear that it was up to me to allow things to happen in my life. My responsability to trust in the process and to have faith in us. That I was very powerful and that my thoughts of feeling less than I am could keep him away from me.

Though I loved him more than anything, I realized I was ready to let go… especially of control and trusted in the process…

I had written him a text message a few days before, telling him that I miss him and that I asked of his forgiveness of my reactions when he broke up with me.

The weather was beautiful and I felt blessed to take a walk by the water. I calmed down and relaxed, with headphones on my head.

I had listened to Matt Kahn the other day – who had a great exercise which makes you say: “may you be blessed” to every person who passes you by.
I did that – and also said “I love you” at times (in my head).

I send these thoughts out to every person I saw that day. Unpersonal, all-loving, joyful.

I had many realizations on this day -but one stuck out:

That I had chosen to suffer.
Everything had happened because I pulled it into my life.
I tried to control everything instead of realizing how much I could influence everything by being myself, by loving, by allowing myself to shine and things to unfold.

I remembered my purpose and was grateful for everything that happened to me up to this point in life.

I was happy, simply happy because that was the deepest source within me it was who I am – and I was grateful! So grateful to be alive.
I gave in – and surrendered.

That day, after I felt more like myself than ever before, Tim texted me back. I asked him to call me and we had a 3 hour conversation on the phone – realizing how much we loved each other.

This was the beginning of our journey together.

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What I want to share with you all are these simple steps:
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—Be happy!
Go back to your origin which is your joy.
You do not have to suffer, suffering is something we fear and we learned it within society.

If you are blessed, send blessings to others
– simply as thoughts. You don’t have to know anyone, just wish the whole world or people you encounter, the very best and send them your love – anonymously.
It will come back to you threefold!

Share your joy and happiness with the world.

Be YOURSELF. There is no one but you. No one can live the life that you are living in the way that you do – and that is a blessing!
So feel free, share your love, share the treasures deep within you.

My life has changed completely and from the moment we moved together there hasn’t been a day where we’ve been apart.

I can be myself around him – he knows me better than anyone else ever could.

Thank you, Tim, you are a blessing to me!

La Aramaryland

From an empty vessel to a beaming Goddess

A year ago when i arrived in New York, I felt like an empty vessel.
All I wanted to do was being liked by others. I didn’t even realize what an impact I had on other people, how much I hurt them or attracted others to me because they saw me as easy-to-control. ‘Oh, she is new to this place, I will protect her’. (Please? I am getting along better in New York than some who have lived here forever.)
My walls were so high that I often blanked out and for the past 12 years I lost myself so much, that I didn’t even feel myself.
I remember my Ma and me at singing lessons.

She said: hold your hands up high and feel your hands tingle.
I hardly ever did.

 

It’s amazing what a ‘normal’ life you can have as a puppet ~ a robot.
Empty eyes, sadness, and this urge to finally wake up, live your own life…

When I was a young girl, I had the most beautiful life someone could ever imagine. My dad might have not always been there, being on tour as a conductor, but oh, I had two wonderful parents, who truly and deeply loved me… not to mention they still love me – to the moon and back – as this wonderful saying goes… 😉

 

 

And eventhough my parents aren’t together anymore, their love for me is what will always keep us together, as a team.

But these thoughts of emptiness and sadness are often not even your thoughts – these are thoughts of the mass consciousness.

You are controlled by something else, a higher authority. Your thoughts, your brain only spit out things that you have been told by others.

Thoughts are always there, like the many radio channels we can listen to any second of the day… – the question is, what do you tune in to…?

Going through a lot of trauma of losing many people and going through a depression and the desire of everybody loving me, I started to live my life in a very passive way. Back then half of my life was watching tv. Instead of having real experiences. I lived through others’ eyes. Through Tv, books and my friends’ stories. I lived as the girl-next-door or even as my own supporting role.

I don’t regret it. This has definitely been an interesting journey. And I learned a lot just by listening to other peoples’ experiences.

But I’ve awakened now. I embrace my former self and kiss it goodbye, say hello to the strong, most beautiful version of myself ~ the strong entertainer, healer, goddess who is meant for something great here on earth ~ for my life is just beginning now and I won’t let my mind dictate what my heart knows is going to be.

 

La Ara