Almost a year ago, Tim and I had a time apart.
A time that was necessary for the both of us – in order to grow and truly know what we want… a time in which I truly suffered and yet I felt it was a cleansing that was completely necessary in order for my next step ahead…
…I had no idea…
The day on which Tim came back into my life (and stayed) on February 19th 2017, was a miraculous day…
I remember walking through Brooklyn, by the ocean, listening to an mp3 by my dear friend Maya KahNah who did a reading on my twin flame and me.
She made it very clear that it was up to me to allow things to happen in my life. My responsability to trust in the process and to have faith in us. That I was very powerful and that my thoughts of feeling less than I am could keep him away from me.
Though I loved him more than anything, I realized I was ready to let go… especially of control and trusted in the process…
I had written him a text message a few days before, telling him that I miss him and that I asked of his forgiveness of my reactions when he broke up with me.
The weather was beautiful and I felt blessed to take a walk by the water. I calmed down and relaxed, with headphones on my head.
I had listened to Matt Kahn the other day – who had a great exercise which makes you say: “may you be blessed” to every person who passes you by.
I did that – and also said “I love you” at times (in my head).
I send these thoughts out to every person I saw that day. Unpersonal, all-loving, joyful.
I had many realizations on this day -but one stuck out:
That I had chosen to suffer.
Everything had happened because I pulled it into my life.
I tried to control everything instead of realizing how much I could influence everything by being myself, by loving, by allowing myself to shine and things to unfold.
I remembered my purpose and was grateful for everything that happened to me up to this point in life.
I was happy, simply happy because that was the deepest source within me it was who I am – and I was grateful! So grateful to be alive.
I gave in – and surrendered.
That day, after I felt more like myself than ever before, Tim texted me back. I asked him to call me and we had a 3 hour conversation on the phone – realizing how much we loved each other.
This was the beginning of our journey together.
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What I want to share with you all are these simple steps:
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—Be happy!
Go back to your origin which is your joy.
You do not have to suffer, suffering is something we fear and we learned it within society.
—If you are blessed, send blessings to others
– simply as thoughts. You don’t have to know anyone, just wish the whole world or people you encounter, the very best and send them your love – anonymously.
It will come back to you threefold!
—Share your joy and happiness with the world.
—Be YOURSELF. There is no one but you. No one can live the life that you are living in the way that you do – and that is a blessing!
So feel free, share your love, share the treasures deep within you.
My life has changed completely and from the moment we moved together there hasn’t been a day where we’ve been apart.
I can be myself around him – he knows me better than anyone else ever could.
Thank you, Tim, you are a blessing to me!
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